My mac, once so young and sexy, has become old and clunky. Wow, in just a few years. The world is moving quickly. Once a young gal, always out on the town, now the mother of a 13 year old. Words cannot express. My life isn't my own anymore. I love my boys, all three of them, but mama needs some time to herself! And I'm taking it. I'm off to Antigua and New York for 2 weeks in May with the 10 month old. This presents some particular challenges going by myself on a red eye, alone, to NYC and then a second 4 hour flight to Antigua. Let's all pray that what I hear time and time again is really true: "He's such a happy baby!".
Lance attacks Aakash.
A friend asked if motherhood is all that I thought it would be. It's not. I never thought I'd be so amazed, humbled, fearful and anxious all at once. I never thought I'd say it, but Sarah Palin was right. I feel like a Mama Grizzly. If it comes down to my son and you, he wins. Period.
Naima will not allow LJ to have daddy's lap solo.
Jamaican Feast by Honorary Jamaican Emma
I find myself fantasizing more and more about the commitment ceremony coming up in Jamaica. I really want to make it happen, people. I really do. I don't know if its being a mom or going through all these changes with my incredible partner, but I feel the urge to share our love and families for a long weekend in Jamaica. Stay tuned for more details.
Lunch with Grandma Carol.
Lance babbles all the time. He says word-like sounds, "dadaddadadada", "juh-juh-juh", "mamamama". Personally, I don't call those words. He doesn't seem to attach any meaning to them, he's just getting ready to be an English speaker. But on Sunday after reading some stories before bedtime, he was leaned up against me on my bed and saw DJ run upstairs and stand in my doorway. He exclaimed with a grin, "Dee-Jay. Dee-Jay". It was precise, thoughtful and salutory. His first real words! I am totally "mom" about it--delighted, impressed and amazed. DJ is more calm about it. In his words, "I mean it's cool, but I don't need to tell everyone about it like Emma".
Cruisin'
Lance is "cruising" (cruisin' in our case), giving high fives (Charity taught him that one), slurping noodles, practicing his consonants, splashing in the tub and playing with his penis. Growing right up! He's pretty much the most amazing person I've ever met, besides his father of course. I almost wrote something cliche like, 'not in my wildest dreams did I imagine this life', but that'd be a lie. In my childhood journal, I have the names of my 11 children (that was the plan!) and my ten-years-older step son. I guess I always thought this was how it would be.
Check out more videos on my YouTube channel: MamaBBFord. Including Lance's first day crawling and kicking Froy in the nuts!
